i have hater.hehhee

She makes me hangin whole of my bodies..but..never mind..i don’t really care actually..
Huh these bitch , doesnt have anything to do other than to flatter herselfs by belittling other people.
And the funny thing is , she dont  know me well…although both of us know each other..because we have stdy in da same place before…aiyayaya…

one more thing huh…she always put her fb status in English…its look like POYOOOO…helooooo,you still in malay~~sia okey…

Or….

Its just the way,that u try to show  the world  (maybe its not to the world,but its more to ur friend,I guess.) that u can speak and fluent in english now huh??..show off…henti kan je  la…xde sape kesah….

But I don’t know why she always kutuk org here and there,itu dan ini?? Is that your hobbies huh? please stop it and try look for another thing to do in ur life..cant u?

And what was even more funnier is other persons , who heard about this ,choose to settled with the baseless comment they heard instead of thinking rationally.
But i guess that what she do , putting bad images on other people just so her mediocre life look more interesting in the day light.
I wonder what she do at night , , wailing hysterically because of her distasteful physical features.
Kalau da kurang elok tu at least perangai bagi la elok sket.

F.L.A.M.E.R

Ade la stalker aku sampai gila b*bi dig in aku punye archive ni. pastu dia happy tergedik2 sebab found a minor grammar/spelling/misusage of words yang aku committed since zaman firaun hersepsut dulu (aku ckap since firaun hersepsut sebab nak signify how long it is, sejak zaman tok kadok lagi , sejak zaman aku pakai baby shoes lagi, sejak zaman ms-dos lagi). pastu dengan "BERANI" nyooooo dok mengomen kat inbox fb aku cakap aku ni a SHITTY WRITER.

the thing is,

not even once aku claimed that aku ni writer ke ape ke.

cakap aku guna byk thesaurus tanpa mengetahui apa maksud disebalik perkataan tu.

demn.

aku nak rasa offended macam kesian la plak sebab aku tau org yang dok flame aku ni mmg hidup dia diconfine dengan english darjah 6. kepala otak rigid and narrow minded.

aku rasa org ni mesti minah. why? cause there is no one mamat over there would even bother to point out that puny error and rub it on my face. even kalau dia mamat skali pun , dah mmg terbukti dia ni pussy sebab dok komen2 tanpa nama sebenar.

aku rasa mak ko mesti panas je perut mase mengandungkan manusia cam ko. sebab hidup kat dunia pun macam tak guna. cikgu ko mesti menyesal ajar ko menulis dan membaca kalau dia tau satu hari nanti ko akan jadi seorang penakut , bacul , dan hanya berani menaip di belakang computer tanpa actually confronted anyone in their face.

aku kesian kat bakal suami/isteri ko nanti.

ke ko mmg sangat a sad excuse for a living sampai tade org nak kat ko.

aku rasa ko cacat.

cacat otak.

kesian.

mintak2 ko dapat petunjuk yang benar.

dan tlg jgn kacau idop aku atau org lain lagi. pegi la betulkan muka ko yang kurang pleasant tu.

aku harap2 ada org akan terima ko seadaanya. ye , dgn muka dan mulut ko yg cam azab tu.

Dah la mulut macam azab,perangai mcm hampeh…

Jealousy

Sometime when depression and anxiety hit me , i often think about something nice , although lets admit it , nothing could overruled the feeling of shitiness. I know from quotes , advices and wise words that we shouldnt by any occasion compared ourself with someone more superior in any aspects that we thought we lack of.But being a human , a species whom filled with lots of emotions that arent so easy to navigate , I couldnt escape that unwholesomely morbid path of jealousy. Every now so often , the entity that i would normally judge upon are another humans themselves.

Daunted by the subject which usually always appear to have everything in place often shaken me off the ground , but from practiced , ive become quite fluent in the language of hidden expression and the art of concealment. Ive learnt to let go of those menacing crestfallen feelings and replace it with fattening food , retail therapy and movie nights.

That was me then.

Now , Im older , not necessarily wiser but equip enough to not get suck into the agony of enviness. Though sometime , i must admit that ive failed miserably.

There are 6 billion population in this planet . By right , everyone should have at least one person they want to exchange skin with.

How do i cope with jealousy/enviness?
There is no real answer to this because up until now i have yet to discover the perfect method to overcome jealousy but oftenly i focus on my good attributes that the other person is impaired on. Even a small thing like being able to slip a thread on needle with one go , or maybe having the ability to excrete a mario-shaped turd could let the air of supremacy engulf ur whole being and believe me ,this thinking will provide u with instant injection of self-confidence.

It is urself, you shud examine beforehand.
then others.
then yourself back.
Keep repeating the same pattern until u realize that no one is ever on top.